I came to the realization last year that while I had my physical health under control, there was still something lacking. I wasn’t ready to begin treatments again just yet, as I wanted to completely reduce the antibodies and felt unprepared. Despite our continued efforts to conceive naturally, I sensed that there was a void. I had already spent months absorbed in Audible books, which had become my favorite daily routine. Every morning, I would take my dog for a walk and indulge in listening to audiobooks or health podcasts.
During my quest for new books, I stumbled upon a captivating title called “Spirit Babies” that immediately caught my attention. Intrigued, I listened to it multiple times, thoroughly enjoying its content. It was truly eye-opening to gain insight into the workings of the spiritual realm and to realize that there is so much more to our existence than we can fathom. Fascinated by the book, I decided to search for the author online, hoping to find more material to read. My main intention was to discover if there were any additional steps I needed to take in order to welcome my baby into this world.
Unfortunately, the author of “Spirit Babies,” Walter Makichen, had passed away. However, I was able to discover Nancy Mae, who had been a client of Makichen’s and continued his work after his death. Intrigued by her connection to Makichen and her dedication to the same path, I arranged a meeting with her assistant. Instantly, I felt a strong resonance and knew that I needed to work with her. Thus, I embarked on a three-month program called Energetic Fertility under her guidance. The experience was transformative. Through the program, I delved deeper into the realms of meditation and spirit babies, which brought me immense comfort and a sense of well-being. My mind expanded with each passing day, allowing me to embrace new perspectives and possibilities.
After completing the previous program, I still sensed that something crucial was missing from my journey. My mindset was not in the right place, and although I hesitated due to the financial commitment, I ultimately decided to join a Fertility Coaching program led by Rosanne Austin. It wasn’t an easy decision to make, as I had numerous limiting beliefs that hindered me from considering investing in another program. I convinced myself that I could handle it on my own, relying on my strength and ability to control my mindset. However, deep down, I knew that after being on the fertility journey for such a long time, I couldn’t do it alone anymore. I immersed myself in Rosanne Austin’s first book, “Am I the reason I am not getting pregnant,” listening to it multiple times and pondering over every word. Additionally, I eagerly consumed her podcast, finding her insights to be incredibly accurate. Yet, despite recognizing the truth in her teachings, my limiting beliefs continued to hold me back from fully embracing the program.
One day, I mustered up the courage and decided to write an application for Rosanne Austin’s program, despite my uncertainty about investing money. Unfortunately, I didn’t receive a response, possibly due to my hesitation. However, shortly after, I came across another program called “Fearlessly Fertile Full Throttle.” This 90-day program, starting on January 1st, 2023, promised daily lessons throughout the first three months of the year, focusing on transforming our mindset. It felt like the perfect solution for me, the icing on the cake. Participating in this program had a profound impact on my perspective. It revealed how closed off I had been without even realizing it.
For a significant period of time, I found myself lacking trust in the divine and the universe. I felt a sense of betrayal and punishment, convinced that my current struggles were a result of some wrongdoing, either in this lifetime or a past one, and that I had to bear the consequences. I must admit that even though I never attended church regularly, I distanced myself from prayer and stopped going altogether during that time. Although I still held onto a belief in something greater, it was a vague and uncertain belief. It’s difficult for me to put into words and fully explain the complexity of my feelings during that time.
Through this program, I had a profound realization that this fertility journey was not happening to me, but rather for me. Reflecting on everything I had experienced, it became clear that this perspective was undeniably true. I had undergone a remarkable transformation over the past two years, surpassing my own expectations. At this point, I fully embraced meditation, placing my faith in signs and the belief that when you possess a strong enough desire, the universe conspires to assist you. I delved into numerous books on mindset and the power of the subconscious mind, with one particular book, “The Power of the Subconscious Mind,” leaving a lasting impact on me. It completely shifted my understanding, revealing that achieving my goals was not as simple as I had once thought. I was determined to shed the role of the victim and take charge as the conductor of my own life.
Although I have not yet achieved everything I want for myself and my family, I am no longer uncertain about whether it was meant for me. I am actively working towards manifesting everything I desire, understanding that the universe is on my side, not out to punish me. I simply need to stay focused on my path and not give up. With that in mind, I have decided to start this blog, which I have received numerous signs to do.
Through this blog, I will share my personal journey, providing as much detail as I feel comfortable sharing (while acknowledging that there may be certain aspects, I am not yet ready to disclose).
I will share what has worked for me and what hasn’t, recognizing that we are all unique individuals.
My hope is that by sharing my experiences, I can offer insights and open minds to new ideas and possibilities for others.
